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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving! Let's count those blessings!

So, as a break from tradition...I am not going to rant, but instead count my blessings. Maybe I'll do it in a verbal diarrhea type of spillage - you know, similar to a rant so you don't all get confused.

This year, I'm blessed. I'm blessed with kids who drive me crazy, a husband who can infuriate me, a house that needs some work done, a car that I hate driving, a body that ain't what it used to be, my fleeting sanity, family that contributes to my fleeting sanity, a bank account that is mainly empty, a job that doesn't challenge my potential, friends who live too far away and too few real ones who live close enough.

I know that doesn't sound like I am counting my blessings...but in actuality - I am. I love all of those things.

My kids can drive me crazy b/c they are healthy and active and loud and happy. My husband infuriates me to no end, b/c I love him and want the best for him and sometimes he can't see the forest through the trees (silly man...).

I have a house and while it may need work, I can afford it, and it is mine. I hate my care purely b/c it is too big for me, and that is by design...it is meant to hold that wonderful family of mine and keep them safe - NOT for me to love.

I am overweight, but I've got some tasty food to eat, a family that loves to cook with me and I can still pull off a somewhat little black dress in creative ways...My sanity may be fleeting, but I've still got it (well, most days) and the extended family that contributes to my hysteria, I've got them. That is more than many can say.

While my bank account is near empty...it is b/c I've used it on all the things I've mentioned above that are the most important things in my life; and hey - I still have it to attempt to fill some day, right? My job doesn't challenge me to my potential, but it does allow for me to have a family on MY terms. It's not much, but I'll take it for now. I still have to work on what I want to be when I grow up...

And lastly, the friend thing. I'm thankful to have you even though you are far away. We keep in touch and I'll hope for the day you move close enough for me to take for granted. And the real friends being sadly lacking close by - well, it made me appreciate the ones far away more than I could have ever dreamed.

The long or short of it is...I really love my life - precisely how it is. Well, that is not too true. I'd love to love it from about 20 lbs lighter. LOL, but who wouldn't? Thanks to everyone and everything for being here for me to gripe about but to really hug tightly when the chips are down and the doors are closed. You make me...well, me. And I kinda like this chick.